This is pretty personal, and for the record, her grandpa is fine. I
know he will be embarrassed that so much is said about him in this
message, but the message is important and the lesson she learned even
more so; for her and for us! Details are, he had a mini stroke. It
affected his speech for the day. They ran every test known to man and
have found no evidence or damage, which is a miracle! (The only
evidence was his speech and confusion at the time) I believe that
miracle is due to the setting apart blessing that Katie received which
stated that her family would be fine while she was gone, especially her
grandparents. We thought it odd at the time, but only 3 weeks later we
understand how inspired that blessing was! Thank you President for
listening to and pronouncing those inspired words and blessings.
~Linda (Mom)
Maayong Buntag/Hapon! (Good Morning/Afternoon)
The Left are the new sisters, and the bottom right and top right/ middle are all the Sisters going to Hong Kong. Sister Moody, in all green/necklace, is my favorite. I am going to miss her so much!! |
I
had a GREAT week this week. So many great experiences! I wish I had to
time to write them all down and share every bit of what I've learned so
far with you, but I can't. I will continue to express how hard a mission
is, it is hard. But I am already starting to see the rewards of my
efforts. First of all, is everything alright with Grandpa? I went to the
temple this morning and made sure to put his name on the prayer roll.
And I've prayed for him every night. I have SO much faith that he will
be okay, but it still breaks my heart to know what he's going through.
This is kind of a personal experience, but I want to share it with
everyone. I was at gym running around the track and decided to take my
dear elders from that day. I read Tyler Packard's and Mandy's and I
loved them. Such great advice and such awesome experiences. It helps to
know what other people are going through, and to see how they turned
out. They are great examples, and are definitely letters I'll be
keeping for motivation throughout my mission. So thank you :) I also
read yours mom, about Grandpa's stroke. I read it and started bawling. I
read what you said mom, and I have faith in my blessing that my family
will all be protected, but it was still hard. My heart literally felt
broken to know that my Grandpa, one of the greatest men I know and one
of my best friends, to know he had to go through that. I couldn't handle
it. I took a lap and got back to find a note an Elder who caught me
crying, had left me. He said, "Don't worry, Remember God loves us." That
struck me so hard, especially right then. God does love us, and we
forget sometimes that He knows exactly what we're going through. The
Atonement not only allows us to repent and be forgiven of our sins, but
it allows us to take comfort in the fact that we are NEVER alone. Christ
knows EXACTLY what we are going through. He knows our pains, our joys,
and our struggles. It's hard to realize that and draw strength off of
that, but when I imagine that Christ is right next to me, crying for the
pain my Grandpa is feeling, I only find comfort. My heartache is still
there, but it is covered by comfort that I am never alone. I might have
physically been alone at the time, but my spirit was comforted by the
Atonement. I have never been so grateful for it in my life. It is a
doctrine that I had studied every day here in the MTC, and my love for
Christ and understanding for Christ grows stronger each day. I didn't
even think it was possible. But when you're in a place where you are in
constant contact with you Heavenly Father, and constantly feeling the
Holy Ghost, there is no way around feeling Christ's love for us, and
God's love for you. And once you feel that, you will feel love for every
single person around you.
That love goes away though haha, as I've learned. So
it's important to be in constant communication with the Lord, and
constantly be seeking the Spirit. It's hard in real life, as a
missionary it's all we do and it's our only focus. But the Lord
understands. He doesn't expect us to be perfect, He just wants us to try
and to show Him love in little ways throughout the day. Things that we
all learn as little kids, like: apologizing sincerely, serving those
around you, even if it's something little, removing yourself from
unclean environments, and starting your days off right. I can't go one
day without praying here, I can hardly go an hour without praying
actually haha. But I've learned here to make goals you can keep, so I'm
going to encourage all of you to make a goal you can keep this week. I
want to encourage everyone to just make it their goal to start their day
off with a prayer. Just a morning prayer. Short, sweet and simple. Mom
and Dad, you've always been a good example of that. I love walking in on
you praying when you first get out of bed, it's such a good example to
all of us kids of how to start our days. I promise that if you sincerely
start your days off with a prayer, and even end the day in thanks to
the Lord, that your lives will begin to change. Key word: Sincere. If
you already do it, add to your prayers. Ask the Lord to teach you to
recognize the Spirit throughout the day. Sheri Dew spoke to us yesterday
and told us to, "Ask the Lord to be tutored to know how to listen and
hear the Spirit". Ask sincerely, He WILL provide. I bear testimony of
that. He's gotten me through 3 weeks of my mission already, when I
wanted to go home on the 3rd day. And these past 3 weeks have been full
of lessons of love, faith and trust in the Lord. We also got to listen
to an MTC devotional from Elder David A. Bednar called "Recognizing the
Spirit". He is so funny! He asked the question, "How do I know if it's
the Holy Ghost, or just me?" He answered saying, "Quit worrying about
it. Press forward with faith in the Lord. When you are moving, you WILL
be guided. Don't wait to hear the voice of the Spirit. If you are being a
good boy, and a good girl, and if you doing righteous things, you WILL
be guided by the Spirit." Well duh. Haha it was such an eye opener to
me, "He shouldn't have keep smacking us with the Holy Ghost to get us to
do it, just move." In Moroni 7:13 it says,"But behold, that which is of
God inviteth and enticeth to do good continually; wherefore, everything
which inviteth and enticeth to do good, and to love God, and to serve
him, is inspired of God." Read it again, it says EVERYTHING that is good
is INSPIRED of God. Think about how many good things you do throughout
the day. Every little thing, every big thing, even the things you don't
even think about. Everything that is good, in an inspired thought or
action from God. Everyone is being inspired every day! Isn't that so
cool?? If you just recognize that good things are from God, and bad
things are from Satan, think about how many of our lives are going to
change. Because who wants to be inspired from Satan? Not me. And that
alone makes me want to try to be a better person every second of the
day. That scripture has been in my mind all week, and I just randomly
came across it studying. But this week has been so good because of that
scripture. I feel myself recognizing who's inspiring me every time I do
or think something. Yeah, it's a little exhausting, but believe me, you
WILL see a change. Inspire to do good. Work hard every day and the Lord
will bless you :) I'm taking that challenge on too, because I know that I
don't work hard enough here. Even though it's all we do, is study,
there are still a lot of things that distract me. There's always room
for improvement, always.
Last Monday I got to go to the Hospital with Sister
R. (pictured above) This Sister is amazing. Her whole district left for the
Philippines last week, and she had to stay for medical reasons. I can't
believe the faith she has, she is so strong. She had to get a bone
marrow biopsy because her white blood cells were down (Do not ask me
more about the situation...I don't even know how blood cells and bone
marrow go hand in hand with each other.) But anyways, her results come
this week so she had to stay an extra 2 weeks. Sister Bray and I are now
her companions. It was such a good experience to go with her, and to be
able to serve. You don't get very many of those opportunities in the
MTC. BUT I did :) and I prayed so hard to be exactly what she needed. I
am so grateful for that. I was able to love her and serve her and make
sure she was okay. And it somehow prepared me for this week...though I
didn't realize it would at the time. I was so discouraged with the
language this week, I felt so behind and so unprepared for everything.
She was so grateful for me and had grown to love me so much that she had
the faith in me that I lacked, and she helped me. We role played a
lesson while she was sick in bed, I practiced my Cebuano with her (She
speaks Ilongo - close to Cebuano) and I was able to gain faith in myself
again. It's so hard not to get discouraged here, but that's why wer are
all here for each other. We are all friends for a reason, and she stayed
for a reason. I hate to be selfish and be grateful for her having to
stay but I am. She has slowly been getting better, and began going to
class with Sister Bray and I. Having her here has even strengthened our
companionship. We see that we need to work harder and try harder and not
get so distracted (Our district is way too much fun). Sister Bray and I
made goals this week on how to help each other, and I've made a goal
with myself to be more like her. She is ALWAYS happy. And I'm an
emotional person. So it gets hard sometimes. BUT she finds joy in
everything, and it's starting to wear off on me :) I find myself being
happier throughout the day and not being so discouraged. We try to SYL
(Speak Your Language) almost every day and always fail. Haha but it's so
good for us to laugh at our mistakes. Believe me, it is frustrating.
But it's much less frustrating when neither of us know the language.
Anyway, it's been a good week. I've learned a lot. The
spiritual times come and go. The hard times come and go. The
homesickness comes and goes. The discouragement comes and goes. You
learn to just deal with things when they're present, but let them go as
soon as you. You learn to attempt to keep the Spirit with you, and pray
again when you feel it leave. It's a constant back and forth, but you
are constantly growing every time you decide to ask the Spirit back with
you. It's amazing, the work we're doing. And I'm excited to gain a
better understanding and a bigger excitement for what missionary work
actually is.
I love every one of you who are
praying for me. I hope this email wasn't too long. Well, I know it was
long, but I hope you can each draw strength on the knowledge I've gained
this week. Remember, it's not just for me. This gospel's meant to be
shared :) So share it! Since I can't yet :)
Sister Bray and I love each other! :) |
I can't believe it's April, Kaitlyn gets married in 2
weeks!!! And Jackie leaves soon! (Her skirts are so cute!!) And Ty sent
me a picture of Kelsey, Mom she is so pregnant. I am SO excited! I pray
for her and that baby everyday. I'm so excited she finally felt it
kick!!! Oh the miracles life brings you. I love my nephew already, I
can't wait to meet him!
Let me know how gramps is doing this week. Tell him and
grams that I love them and I'm praying for them. Tell dad to quit
getting hurt. (Mark got a rug burn wrestling with the boys in our
living room, and it got infected. He's allergic to Neosporin...who
would have guessed?) It worries me every day and it's really
annoying. I am not bathing him when I get home if he decides to go and
get himself brutally injured. (Sorry if I have poor spelling. I am going
to hate English by the time I get home, I can already tell.) But for
real, you know I would dad. Just try not to do anything too hard core
(like wrestling or basketball). I love you all so much! I miss you and
pray for you every day. But it's not an unbearable miss anymore. I am
more excited for the blessing my mission will provide you and everyone
supporting me, than I am sad to not be there. So that is a major
improvement this week.
I'm all over the place so I'm going to bear my testimony in Cebuano for you now:
Nasayud
ko nga tinuod ang ebanghelyo. Gugma ko manluluwas ug manunubos ni
JesuKristo. Nagpasalamat ko para sa oportunidad (to be a) misionaryo
para sa simbahan ni JesuKristo sa mga Santos sa ulahing mga adlaw.
Nasayud ko nga propeta karon adlaw ni Thomas S. Monson ug kna gipahiuli
ang ebanghelyo ni Joseph Smith. Sa ngalan ni JesuKristo, Amen.
I know this gospel is true. I love my savior and redeemer, Jesus
Christ. I am thankful for the opportunity I have to be a missionary for
the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I know the prophet
today is Thomas S. Monson and that Joseph Smith restored the gospel. In
the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
Gugma, Sister Hogge
P.S. 3 more weeks, and I'm off to the Philippines!!! (We're getting stir crazy!)
Linda...thanks for the update. It's wonderful to "see" your family again and hear about such special experiences!
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